Waiting You

 

Menunggu Sangat Bosan. Tapi jangan kwatir, aku bawa buku bacaan .

Waiting and waiting, waiting Syawal's chat also. Because tonight we're going to go on a night walk. Yeyyy.

I Finally

Two things that make me smile at the end of the day right now :

1. I finally realize that now is the time for me to get a pair (or maybe more than one pairs) of high heels, at the right time, right age hahah. (Long story, but let me make it short: i've been chosen by my university to be one of their their ambassador at one event and they was like 'tomorrow you have to wear this and heels of course' what? I have no heels. 'You must be kidding me, right'?)

2. I finally realize that i am no longer jealous to one of my ex (which i 'still' secretly admire) when he said that he likes another girl. I dont realize it until a few minutes ago i accidentally make a wish for both of them to be happy. And i was like ' what did i said?' And then i smile.

I am so tired. But the fact that i smile in my bed right now cheers me a bit. Always remember that my God is bigger than any of my problems. I have to worry nothing. You know when no one really cheers you up, then you have to do it yourself. Cheers yourself. I did it everyday. Because I am 100% believe in myself. Believe in what i actually capable of. Let's buy heels. Seriously.

Mosquito

Sometimes you have to thank the mosquito that wakes you up at dawn.

Puput & Syawal Meet Again

The day i met you the other days, I knew it's going to be amazing. I remember the last time we met was 2003, when we were in elementary school's graduation we were in the 3rd grader. 2015 we meet again. Gosh. Such a long time. 12 years.
Long strory short, You invited me to have dinner. I was so happy. I'd love to talk about how this law of attraction thing destined us to meet in Balikpapan. I saw you for the first time again in this posture. I dont recognize you but your eyes really tell the memories. It's such a long time, we were kid that day. And now look at us now.
That time in the beach, our first meeting, really, it was really a quality time. We talk a lot. And i enjoy it so much listening to your milestone.
S : Should we move to another cozy silent place?
P : Sure. Where
S : Just follow me.
End up we were spending time talking non stop in the helipad. It's 10 PM. The security reminded us about the time because it's closing. We call it a day.
S : Do you have a boyfriend?
P : I like straightforward person, I am single. We should date, because you're just look like my type.
S : You are one of an active girl, everybody knows you, kind and smart. I am just ordinary. But can I be your boyfriend now? I like you.
P : I like you. Yes, I would love to date my childhood friend-enemy.
S : Let's take a picture and meet again tomorrow?
P : Of course.
One the first day of our meeting, we are dating. I like to see your eyes when we talk. Your tone of voice when we talk. I like it that you always look deep down my eyes.

I know why I'm in love with this trees. This is my wallpaper. My poster behind the doors. My favorite photo on the wall. Maybe this is becoz of the place, Monpera. It is the place where we spend times sitting and talking, dating, holding. Solid and strong. This trees reminds me of you. Somewhere around May 2015. I remember the conversation be like :

S : We should give it a try, this relationship.
P : I would love to
S : (Pointing to the trees)
P : Hmmmm what?
S : Remember me whenever you see this oke?
P : Okay. (Taking the camera)
S : What d u wish for ?
P : Hmmm. I love studying but want to quit college and be with you and not LDR, hahaha.
S : You can come often, or i can come often. I have to make sure a person like you dont have a boyfriend really? Because if you do it would be my fault.
P : How can a nerd like me have one? I only have friends. You are my first. Those man in the social media are all my friends.
S : Really? Good then. Because I like you

Puput & Syawal : Please Kidnap Me

the helipad

Monpera - Balikpapan

Seriously. I hate this routine. I hate that I have to back to work, back to college and back to reality. Remember i hate LDR. I fell like you've taken my soul. I have to go back to this weird city, Samarinda, (where all my spirit and happiness like vanished automatically.) while you are in Balikpapan. I really need to get drunk with you, very soon! Omg, i remember it yesterday we were dating in a fancy cafe besides the beach, it's dim light but your face is still charming, and in order to know what alcohol taste like, i ordered it one, drink a big bottle, and you were like panic attack hahaha. We should do another crazy one, shall we.