(This evening when I was heading home after paying a take a way dinner, a takoyaki, when I was about to ride my motorcycle, from afar I saw a man riding his bicycle with kind of dried fish attached to it, he sells dried fish and stuff with his bicycle, which I thought he wanted to approached me but he just slowly pass. I saw his expression, his face, he was quite exhausted I guess. He didn't see me, but when he was closer to where I stand, he looked at my eyes and I was just give him a big smile. He smile back. I can't really talk to him tho because he was still in his moving bicycle but that time I was standing still and make me thinking if my smile is cheering enough for him. Because I really wanted to cheer him. When you see someone you don't know (or even you know) there is nothing much you gave exchange/talk with each another other than a smile. So I smile.)
Keep me thinking for this boring Saturday night: I sometimes got my friend ask me tho, about why am I smiling a lot to stranger. About how i should not give a stranger a wide smile. About what the hell was I smiling about?
Well, why shouldn't I? It’s just automatic.
When people like accidentally eye to eye with me, I dont know and I don't care if he/she is bad or good person, I'm just automatically smile. I might find the occasional person who doesn't respond, but it is really okay for me. I don’t need to know everyone’s story and I don’t need to understand why he/she doesn't respond.
I remember a woman I smile to e.v.e.r.y.t.i.m.e. I passed her fruit stall in the traditional market but she never smile back, later she then become my bestfriend. I remember a man from a building construction men thank me for smiling at them. I remember when a group of taxi men catcalling me in the street, but I didn't make my walk faster, nor did I give them my insulted expression, instead I smile back and wave "hello, keep spirit, Sir!". And I always be like that. I.JUST.SMILE.BACK and I'm fine with them.
Some friends think I am crazy, some thinks I'm looking for attention, but I really had no good reason not to smile at everyone. That's why since then, my highschool friends knew my term "senyum sampai telinga". Bcoz my idea about a smile: It has to be wide no matter how weird we look, :)
