Why

Hi. Long Time No See. Goodbye 2015

Waiting You

 

Menunggu Sangat Bosan. Tapi jangan kwatir, aku bawa buku bacaan .

Waiting and waiting, waiting Syawal's chat also. Because tonight we're going to go on a night walk. Yeyyy.

I Finally

Two things that make me smile at the end of the day right now :

1. I finally realize that now is the time for me to get a pair (or maybe more than one pairs) of high heels, at the right time, right age hahah. (Long story, but let me make it short: i've been chosen by my university to be one of their their ambassador at one event and they was like 'tomorrow you have to wear this and heels of course' what? I have no heels. 'You must be kidding me, right'?)

2. I finally realize that i am no longer jealous to one of my ex (which i 'still' secretly admire) when he said that he likes another girl. I dont realize it until a few minutes ago i accidentally make a wish for both of them to be happy. And i was like ' what did i said?' And then i smile.

I am so tired. But the fact that i smile in my bed right now cheers me a bit. Always remember that my God is bigger than any of my problems. I have to worry nothing. You know when no one really cheers you up, then you have to do it yourself. Cheers yourself. I did it everyday. Because I am 100% believe in myself. Believe in what i actually capable of. Let's buy heels. Seriously.

Mosquito

Sometimes you have to thank the mosquito that wakes you up at dawn.

Puput & Syawal Meet Again

The day i met you the other days, I knew it's going to be amazing. I remember the last time we met was 2003, when we were in elementary school's graduation we were in the 3rd grader. 2015 we meet again. Gosh. Such a long time. 12 years.
Long strory short, You invited me to have dinner. I was so happy. I'd love to talk about how this law of attraction thing destined us to meet in Balikpapan. I saw you for the first time again in this posture. I dont recognize you but your eyes really tell the memories. It's such a long time, we were kid that day. And now look at us now.
That time in the beach, our first meeting, really, it was really a quality time. We talk a lot. And i enjoy it so much listening to your milestone.
S : Should we move to another cozy silent place?
P : Sure. Where
S : Just follow me.
End up we were spending time talking non stop in the helipad. It's 10 PM. The security reminded us about the time because it's closing. We call it a day.
S : Do you have a boyfriend?
P : I like straightforward person, I am single. We should date, because you're just look like my type.
S : You are one of an active girl, everybody knows you, kind and smart. I am just ordinary. But can I be your boyfriend now? I like you.
P : I like you. Yes, I would love to date my childhood friend-enemy.
S : Let's take a picture and meet again tomorrow?
P : Of course.
One the first day of our meeting, we are dating. I like to see your eyes when we talk. Your tone of voice when we talk. I like it that you always look deep down my eyes.

I know why I'm in love with this trees. This is my wallpaper. My poster behind the doors. My favorite photo on the wall. Maybe this is becoz of the place, Monpera. It is the place where we spend times sitting and talking, dating, holding. Solid and strong. This trees reminds me of you. Somewhere around May 2015. I remember the conversation be like :

S : We should give it a try, this relationship.
P : I would love to
S : (Pointing to the trees)
P : Hmmmm what?
S : Remember me whenever you see this oke?
P : Okay. (Taking the camera)
S : What d u wish for ?
P : Hmmm. I love studying but want to quit college and be with you and not LDR, hahaha.
S : You can come often, or i can come often. I have to make sure a person like you dont have a boyfriend really? Because if you do it would be my fault.
P : How can a nerd like me have one? I only have friends. You are my first. Those man in the social media are all my friends.
S : Really? Good then. Because I like you

Puput & Syawal : Please Kidnap Me

the helipad

Monpera - Balikpapan

Seriously. I hate this routine. I hate that I have to back to work, back to college and back to reality. Remember i hate LDR. I fell like you've taken my soul. I have to go back to this weird city, Samarinda, (where all my spirit and happiness like vanished automatically.) while you are in Balikpapan. I really need to get drunk with you, very soon! Omg, i remember it yesterday we were dating in a fancy cafe besides the beach, it's dim light but your face is still charming, and in order to know what alcohol taste like, i ordered it one, drink a big bottle, and you were like panic attack hahaha. We should do another crazy one, shall we.

Tempat Tidur

Kemarin habis dari gramed mau pulang ternyata masih sore, jadi kok kaki ini malah belok ke Blitz. Menit keberapa udah ketiduran nonton MI. Nilai 1-9, aku kasih filmnya nilai 4. Ternyata filmnya tidak membuat saya excited. Hanya buang-buang waktu saja. Sampai review pun tidak tertarik. *mission impossible

Shippy

Shippy shippy my tea. Don't have to share my donuts and fries. No one ask me to go home early from the bookstore. Now this is explosions. Aint Wind Chime rocks your mind? Haha

Kitchen

I made Mi Aceh. Nindy's on background.

You check my everyday soundscaping (in the kitchen):
1. Trouble, Heartaches and Sadness -  Ann Peebles
2. The Violet Hour - Sea Wolf
3. Solitude - Broke For Free
4. O' Children - Nick Cave
5. Melt - Broke For Free
6. Royal - Lorde (Yes, I admit it, I listen to this as well. Haha)
7. Still Life - The Horrors
8. Love it Or Leave it - Asaf Avidan

No, I'm not Angry.

Just so you know, I'm not angry. I just don't believe that 'this kind of story' is now happening in the stage of my 21 life. I'm just extremely disappointed at you. Yes. I will miss you. But i have no trust on you anymore. I get the point now.

I might be angry. But i can never unlove you.

Aku sudah berusaha menjadi pendengar terbaik. Sanking baiknya aku sampai mual mau muntah dengar kasus yang diulang-ulang setiap hari.

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Sendirian itu menyenangkan.

Yeah, For Aslan.

Respond to a friend who just in to Narnia thingy : Yes i've read all 'The Chronicles of Narnia" series. Yes i finished it when i was in junior high. Yes i still love to read it today.

Please?

Belakangan sering ketemu yang gitu sih. Dia yang ngundang, dia juga yang cuekin, well, gak cuekin banget sih tapi ngobrol sambil pegang hape. Rasanya mau cepat-cepat pulang. Aku juga punya LEBIH banyak urusan yang harus di cek di hape, tapi aku rela gak ngutak-ngutak hape supaya kita bisa lebih manusiawi. Mending aku makan sendiri di rumah yak kalo gini ceritanya. Kalaupun ada sesuatu yang penting, aku minta ijin ke lawan bicara buat liat hape sebentar.

Please? Pegang hape saat ada lawan bicara di depan muka itu menurutku sangat tidak sopan. Menurutku sih gak tau menurut orang lain. Mungkin aku akan jadi mommy yang jahat suatu hari nanti yang menyita semua handphone saat waktunya makan di meja makan. Aku rasa hape membuat orang-orang kehilangan etikanya. Mungkin aku yang lebay, aku fokus memberikan 100% perhatian pada apa yang lawan bicaraku sedang sampaikan. Aku SANGAT respect sama sahabat-sahabat aku atau orang-orang yang rela menyimpan hape ke dalam tas atau dimanapun selain di atas meja ketika sedang dinner sama aku. Terimakasih banyak untuk hari ini.

Happy Hell

I'm really sorry to say that my cooking skill is better than you, so you should be the one who cry at this moment because you're not be able to see this sexy sunflower dance in your kitchen anymore. Plus, i bring back home my Nick Cave CD's. I'm so fine right now. Maybe you should call your friend to fire the kitchen and make a happy meal , disgusting pancakes?

Wearing Blue

Need to buy a new dress. Surfing on Zalora. I have no partner. So i dont care about the 'matching color thing' on my friend's wedding party on August 15th.

Anyway, this evening i also think about buying new bed sheet. Grey and brown is so boring and by the way, a man named Ironman, chose those 'old lady-ish' color for me back then and i started to hate those colors now. I even think about changing my signature fragrance.

I'm done. Sorry to say. I'm done with ANY love story at this moment. Dont u dare to give me any book or movie reccomendation about what i dont like AT this moment.

Table Set For Two (syawal - puput)

If you asked me how i'm doin. I would say i'm doin just fine. I would lie and say that you're not on my mind.

Gimana y mulainya. Jadi i never had a boyfriend everr in my life lah. Dari sekian banyak abang-abang di kampus yang deketin, gak tertarik sumpah. Malah dipertengahan tahun 2015 ini aku ketemu sama sobat jaman SDku si syawal yang suka gangguin aku makan bekal dulu jaman SD. 

Aku baru tau dia nyariin aku lewat facebook. yah bulan lalu chat chatan terus ketemu deh. you know aku sangat tidak mudah fall in love, tapi pas ketemu entah kenapa kayak langsung nyaman aja gitu hahahaha. terus tanpa basa basi udah pacaran aja yok. mengingat umur kita skrg 23 tahun dan aku pikir ini waktunya sekarang untuk memikirkan my love story hahaha.

so you are my boyfriend now. my first love lah ceritanya ini. duh. hahahahha

bagaimana kah kisah kita selanjutnya? 

aku sangat senang dengan jalan jalan malam kita skarang.

syawal - puput islamitha

syawal - puput islamitha

syawal - puput islamitha

Aku Datang Menangis

Ada hari dimana aku hanya ingin diam. Diam tidak merespon semua sapaan, pertanyaan, bahkan senyuman orang-orang baik. Diam pada harihari itu bukan berarti aku diam juga kepada Tuhanku. Ada orang-orang disekitar saya yang beribadah hanya karena itu adalah kewajiban dan berdosa jika ditinggalkan.

Saya tidak peduli dengan ibadah saya adalah ‘sebuah dosa jika saya tinggalkan’. Saya beribadah karena ada suatu titik dimana saya akhirnya mengerti bahwa saya beribadah karena saya butuh berbicara kepada Tuhan saya setiap saat. Saya butuh bertemu tuhan saya setiap hari. Tuhan saya mengerti bahkan saat saya diam. Ketika kamu percaya bahwa ada sebuah entitas yang melindungi kamu setiap hari, kenapa tidak menuju padaNya setiap saat.