Puput & Syawal : The End

If you asked me how I'm doin. I would say i'm doin just fine. I would lie and say that you're not on my mind.

This month i was so depressed that my heads keeps asking why are you leaving me and become a ghost in my mind. :(
Even if you true dont like me, you can just tell me so that i am not dying in curiosity.

Maybe i should be more active in A LOT OF ACTIVITIES so that i can forget you easily.

But you know, the more i try hard to forget everything between us, the more i'm thinking about you. :(
This is the end.

I let you stay in my mind until I die. Until you tell me why our relationship doesn't work.

I hope you doing great. This relationship is breaking my heart. I don't know when we started, how should we call this uncertain relationship, but it's over now. I thought that you could be my future. But it's the end. I still like you no matter what.

 

                           This look like my brain, messy..

Have you?

Have u ever had the experience ; that you really need to cry OUT LOUD at 2 AM in the morning but you remember you have a duty tomorrow which if you cry you will have a swollen under eyes that you can not hide because people will see you as the center of attraction and your boss will say that you're being unprofessional????  That you have to bury the tears deep down your mind. It is so nyesek. That's why, don't forget to run!


I am not a cry person. But if I do, it must be something that really-really-really so damn disturbed me.

One Sided

At first, I thought that I only adoring you. Like a fan-girl-ing or something. I try to think realistically and take a moment to give myself spaces. But then i realize, i am not just a fan. 

I am into you. 

I did had thoughts about where we are heading in terms of long term compatibility or 'defining' the relationship. But it still does not give me any indication of what my intentions are. 

Should we protect somebody's heart or should I protect mine?

Should i make shield? 

Should i pretend i never into you?

But at the end, again, I go by words that define the relationship such as "I want to be exclusive with you". 

I am the most selfish person in the world.

Even if later you don't choose me, i will stay selfish in adoring you. 

You have choice i have none. Technically I should be mad or crazy...

But the hell is going. I am not. 

The craziness is not because of that. It is because you yourself that sending a very strong signal maybe to me. You are the powerful rhythm in my head that ever disturbed me. 

I'm comfortable with being in a potentially one sided exclusive relationship - with you. 

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SAMARINDA --- Perlombaan Reportase menjadi awal bagi munculnya bibit-bibit reporter handal di Kalimantan Timur. Hal tersebut dijelaskan Puput Islamitha sebagai juara pertama dari lomba Reportase yang diadakan oleh Dinas Komunikasi dan Informatika Provinsi Kalimantan Timur beberapa saat lalu.

“Saya baru dua kali mengikuti lomba di Diskominfo, yang pertama lomba Pidato Bahasa Inggris bulan Januari kemarin dan ini lomba yang kedua”, tukas Puput saat diwawancarai usai pengumuman pemenang di WIEK Diskominfo saat itu.

Ditambahkan Puput bahwa banyak ilmu yang didapatkan dari perlombaan reportase kali ini terlebih banyak informasi yang didapatkan melalui technical meeting dari para reporter-reporter senior yang pada kali itu juga merupakan dewan juri dari TVRI dan RRI.

Dalam peringatan Harkitnas Ke-108 yang tepat akan dilaksanakan Jumat besok hari menjadi hari yang bersejarah mengingat perjuangan pemuda pemudi Indonesia dalam memperjuangkan kemerdekaan.

“Harapannya sempga para muda mudi di Kaltim dapat semakin bangkit untuk berani tampil, berani berkompetisi dan berani menyuarakan pendapat terlebih mengingat sudah masuknya Masyarakat Ekonomi ASEAN di Indonesia”, jelas Puput. (DISKOMINFO/Lely)

*setelah seharian juriin script adik-adik, juga di tempat yang sama ikut reportase ini, mau mengeluh apa? Masih syukur diberi kesehatan untuk sibuk. Alhamdulillaaaah....

Speaker Rush

After the ceremony, i have to rush to my class (aku sampai jawab pertanyaan wartawan kaltimpost yang nahan aku di parkiran itu sesingkat singkatnya, mungkin dia kira aku sombong padahal i really need to go to my class as soon as possible, maaf ya mas-masnya kalu ada yang baca postingan ini wkwkwkw)  Aku kira jam 9 itu kuliah opini publik sekalinya salah ruangan dan jadwalnya aku isi materi dulu di salah satu kelas, untung ada mba mba PJ yang nelpon

 "Maaf mba Puput, sudah dimana?"

"Ini masih nyetir di daerah PM tunggu ya 15 menit lagi."

"Iya mba, ditunggu."
Sambil pulang ke kos ganti jilbab sesuai dresscode. Really out of breath ....

Sampailah di ruang 17 kok gak ada yang mau acara ni mana sih, apa gue salah ruangan..... 

"Mba ini saya sudah di 17 kok ada perkuliahan ya diruangan ini?"

"Loh mba salah mba, ruang kuliah S2 mba, dibawah, maaf ya mba saya jemput ya mba...."

"Gak usah ini jalan aja udah parkir."

Sampai di ruangan acara udah mau mulai. Untung gak telat lagi kayak upacara tadi.... 

"Mba ntar saya tarik napas dulu yak baru ngomong, ada air gak?" wkwkwkwkkwkwk

Dan ingat dari pagi belom makan, habis dari kantor gub langsung ke ruangan ini, habis itu ada kelas barulah setelah jam 3 pulang ke kos. Gak nafsu makan karena antara gak fokus lari-lari lupa jadwal sama masih shocked habis dapat undangan penghargaan kemarin. Just buy a cup of avocado juice itupun gak habis karena in rush nap. Overall, jangan mengeluh. Masih syukur dikasih kesibukan dan rejeki sama Allah swt. 

Thankyou for inviting me.

Rush

Ini foto-foto upacara peringatan Harkitnas kemarin. I got the 1st place for reported speech competition. Waktu itu aku bahas tentang Revolusi Mental sebagai Wujud Kebangkitan. I never expect that my self would be the winner because pesertanya yang menjadi kompetitor bahkan mbak-mbak dan mas-mas kuliah S2. Kalau dari logika sih, dari sebelah mananya aku bisa mengalahkan mereka. But Allah swt has the scenario. I got the 1st place. 2nd dan 3rd placenya adalah mba-mba S2 jurusan KIMIA , 4th placenya mas mas S1 dari teknik lingkungan dan 5th placenya mas-mas S1 dari politeknik Samarinda. This is an honor for me. Once again i say i don't expect makanya pas dapat undangan itu sampai hari H dapat penghargaan aku masih bertanya-tanya aja, ini beneran gue gak sih? Masa sih? Alhamdulillaaaah....

White Shirt sponsored by Mango Indonesia, hahahah thankyou

with mba roro juara 3 (kiri), mba setya juara dua (kanan)

Puput & Syawal : You could just tell me :(

Where are you when I need you the most?

Where are you when i need you the most?

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Where are you when i need you the most? ?