Total Bastard

I’m quite melancholy this morning.

The fact that I know he’s concern about my future sure make me trembled.

 “Why is he so kind to a total bastard like me?”

After all that I’ve done to him and his fam?

After all this time,

he’s STILL concern…

Instead I call him and say something; I stand still staring at my cellphone. Have you ever feel you disappointed to no one but yourself awfully until you cannot cry anymore, even a single teardrop but you know deep in your heart you scream out loud..

“Why are you so kind to a total bastard like me?”